Frustrated, sad, angry, thinking like an idiot....those words make me hate myself more...urgh! I can't rely on myself...just hate it. Work less but hoping to get something more than what I did. Living alone only made me inhuman, I don't bother about others...how pathetic I am. I live in my on world for too long, since I was kid, only me and my world. I hate to be friends with others because I will only hurting them, make them sad...I'm good in making people hate me...I've lost my true self...I've lost my confident, my hope...This new year only make me sad...truly sad. Something happen in my life, my family. That make me feel lost...
I'm grateful that I was born in this world but sometimes I feel unsatisfied because I'm not work hard for myself...my family...there is a place that I really want to go but sadly it just in my dream...high, top on the mountain..one big tree with beautiful flower dancing happily with the wind...the cloud smiling on the sky and I was under that tree looking at them smile peacefully...I really hope that I can find my true self again...my happiness, my family happiness.
